My Friday, Through Song

Friday was one of the worse days I can remember.

Unanswered questions.

What if?’s

I was staring into the unknown.

The same unknown that rocked my world 5 years ago.

I hated it then. Moving was the worse thing that I, in my 12 year old understanding, could imagine. But God knew what He was doing. If I could go back in time, I wouldn’t change anything.

These things were what I was reminding myself as 1:00 rolled around, the time of the meeting that could change everything. That could cause me to graduate early, or start senior year in another State.

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up, when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me
So
 
I’m
 
Letting
 
Go

That song by The Afters was what I needed to hear. I knew God was in control. But this song was what it took to get my heart on the same track.

God was in control when a promotion brought us North. God was in control on Friday. I knew Jesus, in His mercy, was carrying me. I was trembling, but my faith wasn’t shaken. I was broken by the possibility of starting anew, but His loving embrace held me together.

I’m falling even more in Love with you, 
letting go of all that I have held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move. . . 
Living for the only thing I know. 
~Lifehouse
 
I am so thankful for his loving mercy, for his presence, for his peace.
I am so thankful that He was my first love. That He was the first one to sweep me off my feet and carry me into a forever with Him.
I am thankful that a little more of that forever will take place here, in this cold, Northern, we-don’t-know-what-country-ham-is world that I never thought would become home.
Because, against all odds, it has. I love it here. And I don’t want to say goodbye.
And, by the sheer Grace of God, I WON’T HAVE TO.

 

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