Sometimes, I feel like I am just walking in circles, pacing in anticipation. Trusting in God’s timing is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. In a culture of text messages and microwaves and next day shipping, getting what I want, the second I want it seems to be the norm; and instant gratification is something that my mother has fought my entire life.
Tonight, I have been struggling more than I have in a while, with questions and wishes and longings. With wonderings, and whys? and how could yous?. I am so overwhelmed, I feel like I am sinking.
So, like I have in so many other instances, I turn to scripture.
Then the Lord said to Joshua, “See, I have delivered Jericho into your hands, along with its king and its fighting men. March around the city once with all the armed men. Do this for six days. Have seven priests carry trumpets of rams’ horns in front of the ark. On the seventh day, march around the city seven times, with the priests blowing the trumpets. When you hear them sound a long blast on the trumpets, have the whole army give a loud shout; then the wall of the city will collapse and the army will go up, everyone straight in.” Joshua 6:2-5
God told his people to walk. IN CIRCLES!!! For 7 days.
This was unlike any battle plan the Israelites were expecting. But because it was what God called Joshua to do, He Did It.
The life of a fisherman was his nets. If the nets deteriorated, the fishermen had no way to make a living. These men spent hours, tedious, long hours cleaning the nets. That is where this story picks up.
This is from Luke, chapter 5.
4 When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”
5 Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”
Simon (who later had his name changed to Peter) had spent all night working. And then hours that morning cleaning the nets. If they had let down their nets, they would have to spend several more hours cleaning their nets again. But he did so anyway. It didn’t make any sense at all. But because he was told to, he did. And look what happened.
6 When they had done so, they caught such a large number of fish that their nets began to break. 7 So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them, and they came and filled both boats so full that they began to sink.
They caught so many fish that the boats started to sink! Jesus blessed them so completely, because even though what he was saying didn’t make sense, they obeyed, just because the words were coming from the mouth of Jesus.
I am so overwhelmed by Your grace and healing mercy, I feel like I am sinking in it. You have blessed me so abundantly, I am sinking in all you have bestowed upon me. Walking in circles doesn’t make sense to me. But because you say so Lord, I will.